Of course, like every Thursday, I participate in Mama Kat's writer's prompt. The one I chose today is MY SONG.
Today the question is posed: What is MY song.
It's really a difficult question to answer. (click -->) Music is really one of those things that has no category. Or it has too many. I listen to music nearly 99% of my waking hours. If I'm not listening to music, it's probably an audio book I'm listening to.
Over the years, MY song has changed.
From Brown Eyed Girl by Van Morrison (because my mom's 5 brothers used to sing it more at me than to me), to Dance Ballerina Dance by Nat King Cole when I was 9, to Waiting by Green Day when I was in high school (Because I felt as though I was on the verge of great things.) Girl at the Rock Show by Blink 182 (Because I spent the majority of my college career at concerts and dying my hair blue.) and recently, Troublemaker by Weezer because my brother, Biege, says it reminds him of me. Sometimes, I miss my childhood and I find it an Ataris day for Here in this Diary. And maybe one day I need Ingrid Michaelson with Be Okay.
And then there are PEOPLE. People with whom I SHARE a song. And yes, I still include exes here, because, while yes, I am over them, and it was a long time ago, they shaped my life in some manner or another, and hearing "our" song brings back memories I smile at behind wiser eyes.
I shared the song Lady in Red, by Chris De Burgh with a boy I knew because from ages 14-18, we attended church dances every other month and we slow danced to this one every single time. Nothing romantic. I just wore a lot of red, and he noticed the coincidence.
My best friends from high school- Butterfly by Crazy Towne
Dylan- my first kiss - Iris by Goo Goo Dolls
Ray- Island in the Sun by Weezer and later, Don't Ask Me by Okay Go....because he resented my happiness for a long time.
Brandon- Nice and Easy by Frank Sinatra while we dated, we danced to What if I Loved You by Joey Gian at our wedding and we claim other songs such as It's All Been Done by Barenaked Ladies, I Want You To by Weezer, and more than a dozen others.
Lilly- L-O-V-E by Nat King Cole
Mahone- Fly Me to the Moon by Frank Sinatra
Scarlet- When it Comes to Love by The Big Bad VooDoo Daddies
Teague- Somewhere Beyond the Sea by Bobby Darin
Nyssa and Rachael- 9 to 5 by Dolly Parton
My Dad- Luckiest by Ben Folds and My Heart Belongs to Daddy by Ella Fitzgerald.
And the list goes on.
My whole entire life I have defined events and emotions surrounding my miniature eras with music and lyrics. That part is easy. Somewhere, someone has sung about exactly the issue you are dealing with. Happy, sad, breakup, triumph, loss, God, atheism, patriotism, peace, war, drugs, and so on, you can find a song to define your feelings.
It's much MUCH harder to choose a song that defines you. Not just an event, not just a life situation, not just a relationship, but YOU. I've avoided the situation for a really long time due to not wanting to be presumptuous. Or braggy. There are a lot of songs that define the kind of girl i would LIKE to be. (Cake: Short Skirt Long Jacket, Are you gonna be my Girl by Jet) But putting it out there and saying that it's me would make me uncomfortable. What if people disagree? (Yeah, yeah, I know, who cares what people think.) What if the song I choose makes me sound particularly self important? It's one of those things where, in many past discussions with friends, I have blinked at or rolled my eyes at the songs my friends have chosen for themselves, thinking "That has nothing to do with them at ALL!"
I don't want to be that way.
So, I did the obvious. As a blogger who spends almost as much time on the computer as I do listening to music, I asked my facebook friends what song, if they were to choose, would be ABOUT ME SPECIFICALLY.
One response I got was this one:
Now, this song is one I have never heard. But I got goosebumps when I watched the video and listened to the lyrics.
1. I am impressed and flattered that people might have this song come to mind when they think of me.
2. I WANT to be the "go get it" girl- the one who lives my dreams, the one who doesn't give up, but if I need a break, that's okay. I want to prove them wrong who doubted me, and make them proud who believed in me.
As of today, THIS is MY song.